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I’ve thought about writing this article for quite some time but also know how polarizing the topic can be. I’ve always had a voice, hence having my blog for 15+ years, and having a very active social presence, yet somewhere in the mix I lost my voice.
The ability to type and share whatever was on my mind, which as an extroverted introvert has its own consequences in itself because I tend to bottle everything up.
You’ve probably seen the “2026 is the new 2016” trend going around. Hopefully yours is focused on the fashion part of the trend (aka big sunglasses and ballet flats) and not the emancipation endorsement. Aka Kate Moss and Mary Kate Olsen circa 2016 with bones showing at every which angle.
So I will just come out and say the obvious, I am t-r-i-g-g-e-r-e-d.
I am triggered by seeing people or celebrities lose drastic amounts of weight so suddenly, I am triggered when I go out to lunch with friends or family who don’t eat, or eat half a celery stick and say they’re full, I am triggered when I get an ad for a semaglutide or see it advertised in every doctors office.
AND quite frankly i’m also triggered that I can’t voice how I feel about it to anyone without being labeled as the bad guy.
As someone who struggled with a severe eating disorder in her adolescence, and yes idolized Mary Kate Olsen-I can tell you that there is absolutely nothing glamorous about having an eating disorder or being in the ICU at 15 years old with a critically low potassium level of 1.4.
I also want to preface by saying that if you are someone that struggles with their weight and needs this drug, then I am not talking to you. I am talking to celebrities, that come out at 108lbs and say that they are using a GLP-1 to advance their modeling carer (iykyk) and yes, whilst I appreciate the transparency I also wonder the message this is giving to younger generations.
I look at my college age sisters flooded with skinny-tok, overpopulated with “what I eat in a day” videos or “how to maintain 6 pack abs” (which as a woman isn’t about discipline or workouts but simply biology) and wonder the longterm effects it’s having on their psyche.
It isn’t rocket science to know that every body is different and requires different macros. I have tried every diet under the sun and worked with some of the top nutritionists, and can tell you that no one knows your body better than yourself. I promise that if you start to listen to what foods REALLY fuel you (which is trial and error) then you will quickly figure it out.
For arguments sake I will add in a personal example, this summer I very publicly froze my eggs. I was told to expect a few pounds of weight gain and 10 days of injections. Instead I gained 17lbs, and was injecting myself 4x a day for nearly 3 weeks. I was so uncomfortable in my body that I didn’t even recognize myself. My clothes didn’t fit, my face was bloated (and breaking out left right and center), and the scale just wasn’t budging. I would scroll reddit threads in desperation only to find others say that the hormones had permanently changed their body composition and others admitting to going on a GLP-1.
I was doing everything right: low inflammatory diet, electrolytes, and exercise yet my body was in fight or flight. I will also take this moment to preface that I didn’t freeze my eggs “willy nilly” I froze my eggs because i’m undergoing cancer treatment. It was truly a “now or never” moment and the aftermath has been a true true disaster dealing with insurance and being told I owe $29,000 despite this being a medically necessary and pre-authorized procedure (but that’s a different story for a different day).
In an attempt to lose the weight I tried multiple “diets” that worked for other people:low carb, no refined sugar, intermittent fasting. Nothing was working, in fact I was actually one of the rare ones that was continuing to gain weight post retrieval. I went to my Endroconologist desperate for answers and after countless tests, we decided that it was a good idea for me to go back on birth control (also a touchy subject) to regulate my hormones. Before people come at me for how bad birth control is for you, trust me when I say that I have done my due diligence. Everybody is so different, and I strongly believe that we should each do what works for us (which may come as a major contradiction given my rant about being triggered, but I do wish that there was more regulation around GLP-1s).
It’s now been almost 6 months after freezing my eggs and I finally feel that my body is getting back to baseline. I quickly realized that I needed carbs (aka bread, rice etc) and that focusing on a well rounded intuitive way of eating works so much better (for me) than any singular way of eating.
I realize today was all over the place but I wanted to share my thoughts on shrinking bodies just incase anyone else who has struggled with an eating disorder in the past can relate.
