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Back in February, I needed some escapism (or maybe attention?) downloaded Hinge, was disgusted and deleted the app a few days later. Of course, then Corona happened and life (and dating) permanently changed. Until Aspens Birthday, I didn’t really think much about putting myself out there again. Even though my ex and I broke up on very good terms and amicably – there is still a part of me that hurts.
I used to joke that he was the type of man that would marry the girl after me within months-because whenever I brought up marriage he would snap and question “Whats the rush”. Once we broke up, he told me he had a ring which really screwed with my head. Marriage was all I ever wanted yet every time I brought it up, was labeled “annoying”. I felt guilty for knowing what I wanted.
A part of me had hoped for a photo or evidence that he really had a ring. I was expecting him to turn up on my doorstep with roses, or at least wanting to try one last time. He was always very honest, we both were – but I still question if that ring ever existed.
The truth is that whenever I download these apps (Bumble/Hinge it brings me back to what I lost. It’s hard to open up (or be willing) to open up to somebody all over again. I also question how dating will look for our future. Nothing like a LoveShackFancy dress with a blue mask and some sunnies- hey?
